urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re angel_wh0re angel_wh0re 2006-03-19T20:25:06Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:3242 2006-03-19T20:25:06Z 2006-03-19T20:25:06Z So i went out last night for the first time in like, forever. And it actually wasnt too bad! I was soooo pleased with myself at the end of the night! I went the whole night with no major problems and things went mostly smoothly :) Was disappointed that Laura couldnt be there coz i wanted to give her big hug for being soo cool for me and helping me out and stuff.<br />Sounds lame but i really was chuffed to bits with myself - ive gotten so much better and have to give out huge thankies to everyone who helped me out, not gonna mention everyones names coz i know that hardly any of them have LJ accounts.. but they know who they are :D<br />Didnt spend a huge amount of time in the cyber room last night - i think there were just too many people in there for me to feel particularly comfortable but i danced to a couple of things and chatted to a few new people in other rooms :)<br />My hand went down as well so it didnt look like a small melon anymore - would have looked like such a tit otherwise! <br />Hehe still buzzing that ive been out (of the house ;)) looking forward to going out again when i get down to london - laura - you will have no excuse not to go out with me every week, or at least once a month while im down there now... <br />My pennies are saved, my life is going way back uphill, found that the people i didnt even expect help from have been the most amazing people ever, im gonna be starting a new job soon(ish), gonna be getting out on my own again and ive been out clubbing.. and i updated just like i promised you i would ;) now its your turn sweet x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:3002 2006-02-05T20:41:22Z 2006-02-05T20:41:22Z HIM - Under the Rose I reckon being a woman sux... not that id prefer to be a guy.. just reckon that guys just screw everything up for women. tempted to become a lesbian and forsake all the male race.. don't get me wrong, i love most of my male mates to pieces, but for all thier whinging about girls fucking them around, they actually spend most of the time thinking about themselves :S<br />having to think about moving and getting a new place to live but theres only 3 people i would have ever considered living with, k is in penrith and i dont fancy moving out there coz i know i wont be able to get a job, ste is still at uni and to be honest i think we may kill each other if i ever moved in with him (tho it would seriously crimp his ability to bring young boys home :p) and the other one (also male) isnt even talking to me anymore due to the male inability to admit when at fault... <br />pppfffttt... <br />lol im so gonna end up being a bag lady on oxford street or something.. beats working at garlands tho ;)<br />i know that was fairly random but i was thinking about it when i was in the bath and thought i would pen(so to speak) my thoughts before i fell asleep watching tv and waiting for something interesting to happen :) (i reckon it was that Tatu comment the other day that started it)<br />also if you know any women who agree and want to be ma new wife feel free to let me know :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:2624 2006-01-29T13:42:25Z 2006-01-29T13:42:25Z I finally got the call today so hopefully ill manage to get into hospital tomorrow (monday) for this super new treatment thing they want to give me... gotta ring up at ten to see if they definitely have the bed free then i go in and stay overnight. Now all i gotta do is pack :s my dad told me i had to take disinfectant wipes and clean everything but i think the doctors might object if i try and wipe them with disifectant wipes beofre they touch me :s hehe ah well. means i get almost two days of work too which is good though i dont get paid for them which is bad. oooh i should get paid soon too. ah well wish me luck for monday - hope i dont have some huge reaction! xx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:2327 2006-01-08T12:19:57Z 2006-01-08T12:19:57Z I've remembered why i hated online journals and decided that some of my friends totally suck.. why do people always jump to the worst conclusisons? if you think you may not be getting the inside joke - keep your mouth shut instead of spreading rumours about people... jeez... <br /><br />im thinking of perhaps accepting that i really need some new mates and perhaps actually sleeping with half of britain so that they can be right for once in thier lives...<br /><br />hehe rants ahoy, guess ranting does make you feel better... f*ck 'em... ill just sit and drink caffene and eat chocolate and go clubbing and ill be sorted.. cant wait til i move away again :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:1760 2005-12-29T08:36:54Z 2005-12-29T08:36:54Z grrrr, snow... wouldnt usually mind it so much but i cant go out on my own in it now ive got crappy bones incase i fall and i got up sooper early this morning for a pre-test driving lesson only for her to ring me up a minute ago and tell me they have cancelled all the tests today so no point having lesson... now i have to wait around for them to give me another time, will be after i start work and garlands will undoubtedly try to fire me again :p buggers :P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:1325 2005-12-24T14:31:43Z 2005-12-24T14:31:43Z Woo - it may be only christmas eve but we totally just had our mini xmas at ste and nicky's :D some most awsome gists were invloved! mmmm elbow length red satin gloves for mee... and black and white leather corset and more bags :D and more sweets :D and books and dvds and all kinda good stuff :D<br /><br />but the best presents... ste's face when he unwrapped his nice black satin thong with "STUD" in dimantes :D and Nickys face upon unwrapping his large black strap on that we got for him and cassie :D im sooo gonna wait for the screams next time she comes to visit :D<br /><br />Im determined to get ste to set up his webcam today too so see i can put up comedy photos later!<br />hehe and i will be selling photos of ste in said thong for £5 a pic - other poses available upon request!<br /><br />xx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:1062 2005-12-19T00:27:53Z 2005-12-19T00:27:53Z MSI - Faggot Well actually im only updating coz ste said that i dont ever and i wanted to prove him wrong. That and everyone else went to wendyhouse last nite cept me coz i was having christmas with my dad instead. Which kinda sucked but wasnt too bad coz i got prezzies before anyone else :p and had an uber turkey dinner :D mmm..<br />hehe and i got money for presents which means im totally gonna buy myself stuff - that way it wont touvh my account and i wont be any better or worse off than before :D all i have to figure out now is how to get these packages delivered without people becoming suspicious.<br />Hehe and i gotta find a couple of strap-ons somewhere to wrap up for ste and nicky... hehe i love cassie - she has the most awsome ideas ;)<br />x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:923 2005-12-15T20:10:55Z 2005-12-16T21:12:54Z What can i say - i got bored..<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />Appearance<br /><br />[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.<br />[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.<br />[ ] I tan easily.<br />[x] I wish my hair was a different color.<br />[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.<br />[ ] I have a tattoo.<br />[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.<br />[ ] I have/I've had braces.<br />[x] wear glasses.<br />[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.<br />[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.<br />[x] I have more than 2 piercings.<br />[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.<br />[x] I have freckles<br /><br /><br />Family/Home Life<br /><br />[x] I've sworn at my parents.<br />[x] I've run away from home.<br />[ ]I've been kicked out of the house.<br />[ ]My biological parents are together.<br />[ ]I have a sibling less than one year old.<br />[x] I want to have kids someday.<br />[ ] I've had children.<br />[ ] I've lost a child.<br /><br /><br />College/Work<br /><br />[ ] I'm in college. (Uni)<br />[x] I have a job.<br />[x] I've fallen asleep at work/college.<br />[ ] I almost always do my homework.<br />[x] I've missed a week or more of college.<br />[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.<br />[x] I've stolen something from my job<br />[ ] I've been fired.<br /><br /><br />Embarrassment<br /><br />[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.<br />[x] Disney movies still make me cry.<br />[ ] I've peed from laughing.<br />[ ] I've snorted while laughing.<br />[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.<br />[x] I've glued my hand to something<br />[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of mY nose.<br />[ ]I've had my pants rip/drop in public<br /><br />Health<br /><br />[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.<br />[ ] I've gotten stitches.<br />[x] I've broken a bone.<br />[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.<br />[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.<br />[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.<br />[ ] I had a serious surgery.<br />[x] I've had chicken pox.<br /><br />Traveling<br /><br />[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.<br />[x] I've been on a plane.<br />[x] I've been to Canada.<br />[ ] I've been to Mexico.<br />[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.<br />[ ] I've been to Japan.<br />[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.<br />[x] I've been to Europe.<br />[x] I've been to Africa.<br /><br /><br />Experiences<br /><br />[x] I've gotten lost in my city.<br />[x] I've seen a shooting star.<br />[x] I've wished on a shooting star.<br />[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.<br />[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.<br />[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator<br />[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.<br />[ ] I've been to a casino.<br />[ ] I've been skydiving.<br />[x] I've gone skinny dipping.<br />[x] I've played spin the bottle.<br />[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.<br />[ ] I've crashed a car.<br />[ ] I've been Skiing<br />[x] I've been in a play.<br />[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.<br />[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.<br />[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.<br />[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.<br />[x] I've played chicken.<br />[x] I've played a prank on someone.<br />[x] I've ridden in a taxi.<br />[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.<br />[ ] I've eaten Sushi.<br />[ ] I've been snowboarding.<br /><br /><br />Relationships<br /><br />[] I'm single<br />[x ] I'm in a relationship.<br />[ ] I'm engaged.<br />[ ] I'm married.<br />[x] I've gone on a blind date.<br />[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.<br />[x] I miss someone right now.<br />[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.<br />[x] I've cheated in a relationship.<br />[ ] I've gotten divorced<br />[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back..<br />[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.<br />[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.<br /><br />Sexuality<br /><br />[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex<br />[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.<br />[x] I am a cuddler.<br />[x] I've been kissed in the rain.<br />[x] I've hugged a stranger.<br />[x] I have kissed a stranger.<br /><br /><br />Honesty/Crime<br /><br />[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't<br />[ ] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.<br />[x] I've snuck out of my house.<br />[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.<br />[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.<br />[x] I've cheated while playing a game.<br />[x] I've cheated on a test.<br />[ ] I've run a red light.<br />[ ] I've been suspended from school.<br />[x] I've witnessed a crime.<br />[x] I've been in a fist fight.<br />[ ] I've been arrested.<br />[ ] I've shoplifted.<br /><br /><br />Drugs/Alcohol<br /><br />[x] I've consumed alcohol.<br />[x] I regularly drink.<br />[ ] I've passed out from drinking.<br />[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.<br />[ ] I've smoked weed<br />[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.<br />[ ] I've eaten shrooms.<br />[ ] I've popped E.<br />[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.<br />[ ] I've done hard drugs.<br />[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.<br />[ ] I can't swallow pills.<br />[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem<br />[ ] I have been diagnosed with depression.<br />[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.<br />[ ] I take anti-depressants.<br />[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.<br />[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.<br />[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.<br />[x] I've woken up crying.<br /><br /><br />Death and Suicide<br /><br />[ ] I'm afraid of dying.<br />[ ] I hate funerals.<br />[ ] I've seen someone dying.<br />[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.<br />[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.<br />[ ] I've planned my own suicide.<br />[ ] I've attempted suicide.<br />[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.<br /><br />Materialism<br /><br />[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.<br />[x] i own iPod or MP3 player.<br />[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.<br />[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.<br />[x] I own something from Hot Topic.<br />[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.<br />[ ] I collect comic books.<br />[x] I own something from The Gap.<br />[x] I own something I got on e-bay.<br />[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.<br /><br /><br />Random<br /><br />[ ] I can sing well.<br />[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.<br />[ ] I open up to others easily.<br />[x] I watch the news.<br />[ ] I don't kill bugs.<br />[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.<br />[x] I curse regularly.<br />[ ] I sing in the shower.<br />[ ] I am a morning person. Compared to most people<br />[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.<br />[x] I'm a snob about grammar.<br />[ ] I am a sports fanatic.<br />[ ] I twirl my hair<br />[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name<br />[ ] I love being neat<br />[ ] I love Spam<br />[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day<br />[x] I bake well.<br />[x] My favorite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.<br />[x] I would wear pajamas to school.<br />[ ] I like Martha Stewart.<br />[x] I know how to shoot a gun.<br />[ ] I am in love with love.<br />[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.<br />[x] I laugh at my own jokes.<br />[ ] I eat fast food weekly.<br />[x] I believe in ghosts.<br />[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.<br />[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.<br />[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.<br />[ ] I am really ticklish.<br />[ ] I love white chocolate<br />[ ] I bite my nails.<br />[x] I play video games.<br />[x] I'm good at remembering faces.<br />[ ] I'm good at remembering names<br />[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.<br />[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:577 2005-12-05T00:39:26Z 2005-12-05T00:39:26Z divinyls - i touch myself OMG im soo bored.... been online for like 4hrs or something and have only spoken to three people, filled in one of my grad scheme form things and read every single bloody email in someone else's account - methinks i need a life. <br />hmmm altho saying that maybe i should be appreciating the fact that i dont have to get up early 2moro coz if i get this bloody stupid job 2moro then thats that luxury screwed. full time at a naffing call centre.. pffft! id so better get good money for it... mmmmm buy shoes.... <br />ooooh and on the upside (or possibly down, we see in a few days) i decresed my prednisolone today as well :D w00t - only like the first time in about 7 months :p<br />i dont think i like being emo tho :S<br /><br />xx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:angel_wh0re:303 2005-11-29T21:06:06Z 2005-11-29T21:06:06Z Woo Hoo - finally got this thing sorted - geez maybe its just me but i really couldnt be arsed finding my way around this bloody thing... i'll figure it out later.<br />And i always objected to havving an online journal thing not having kept a paper diary for blurb years but hey i figure i dont have to spend the whole time whinging about how much my parents hate me and how the whole world is agaisnt me and all the other crap that people usually write in these emo things :D<br />hmmm... maybe stop now and try work the rest of it out :S grrr wheres ste when you need him - bloody git - being at work when he should be here helping me do sweet FA! xx