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So i went out last night for the first time in like, forever. And it actually wasnt too bad! I was soooo pleased with myself at the end of the night! I went the whole night with no major problems and things went mostly smoothly :) Was disappointed that Laura couldnt be there coz i wanted to give her big hug for being soo cool for me and helping me out and stuff.
Sounds lame but i really was chuffed to bits with myself - ive gotten so much better and have to give out huge thankies to everyone who helped me out, not gonna mention everyones names coz i know that hardly any of them have LJ accounts.. but they know who they are :D
Didnt spend a huge amount of time in the cyber room last night - i think there were just too many people in there for me to feel particularly comfortable but i danced to a couple of things and chatted to a few new people in other rooms :)
My hand went down as well so it didnt look like a small melon anymore - would have looked like such a tit otherwise!
Hehe still buzzing that ive been out (of the house ;)) looking forward to going out again when i get down to london - laura - you will have no excuse not to go out with me every week, or at least once a month while im down there now...
My pennies are saved, my life is going way back uphill, found that the people i didnt even expect help from have been the most amazing people ever, im gonna be starting a new job soon(ish), gonna be getting out on my own again and ive been out clubbing.. and i updated just like i promised you i would ;) now its your turn sweet x

I reckon being a woman sux... not that id prefer to be a guy.. just reckon that guys just screw everything up for women. tempted to become a lesbian and forsake all the male race.. don't get me wrong, i love most of my male mates to pieces, but for all thier whinging about girls fucking them around, they actually spend most of the time thinking about themselves :S
having to think about moving and getting a new place to live but theres only 3 people i would have ever considered living with, k is in penrith and i dont fancy moving out there coz i know i wont be able to get a job, ste is still at uni and to be honest i think we may kill each other if i ever moved in with him (tho it would seriously crimp his ability to bring young boys home :p) and the other one (also male) isnt even talking to me anymore due to the male inability to admit when at fault...
pppfffttt...
lol im so gonna end up being a bag lady on oxford street or something.. beats working at garlands tho ;)
i know that was fairly random but i was thinking about it when i was in the bath and thought i would pen(so to speak) my thoughts before i fell asleep watching tv and waiting for something interesting to happen :) (i reckon it was that Tatu comment the other day that started it)
also if you know any women who agree and want to be ma new wife feel free to let me know :D

I finally got the call today so hopefully ill manage to get into hospital tomorrow (monday) for this super new treatment thing they want to give me... gotta ring up at ten to see if they definitely have the bed free then i go in and stay overnight. Now all i gotta do is pack :s my dad told me i had to take disinfectant wipes and clean everything but i think the doctors might object if i try and wipe them with disifectant wipes beofre they touch me :s hehe ah well. means i get almost two days of work too which is good though i dont get paid for them which is bad. oooh i should get paid soon too. ah well wish me luck for monday - hope i dont have some huge reaction! xx

I've remembered why i hated online journals and decided that some of my friends totally suck.. why do people always jump to the worst conclusisons? if you think you may not be getting the inside joke - keep your mouth shut instead of spreading rumours about people... jeez...

im thinking of perhaps accepting that i really need some new mates and perhaps actually sleeping with half of britain so that they can be right for once in thier lives...

hehe rants ahoy, guess ranting does make you feel better... f*ck 'em... ill just sit and drink caffene and eat chocolate and go clubbing and ill be sorted.. cant wait til i move away again :)

grrrr, snow... wouldnt usually mind it so much but i cant go out on my own in it now ive got crappy bones incase i fall and i got up sooper early this morning for a pre-test driving lesson only for her to ring me up a minute ago and tell me they have cancelled all the tests today so no point having lesson... now i have to wait around for them to give me another time, will be after i start work and garlands will undoubtedly try to fire me again :p buggers :P

Woo - it may be only christmas eve but we totally just had our mini xmas at ste and nicky's :D some most awsome gists were invloved! mmmm elbow length red satin gloves for mee... and black and white leather corset and more bags :D and more sweets :D and books and dvds and all kinda good stuff :D

but the best presents... ste's face when he unwrapped his nice black satin thong with "STUD" in dimantes :D and Nickys face upon unwrapping his large black strap on that we got for him and cassie :D im sooo gonna wait for the screams next time she comes to visit :D

Im determined to get ste to set up his webcam today too so see i can put up comedy photos later!
hehe and i will be selling photos of ste in said thong for £5 a pic - other poses available upon request!

xx

Well actually im only updating coz ste said that i dont ever and i wanted to prove him wrong. That and everyone else went to wendyhouse last nite cept me coz i was having christmas with my dad instead. Which kinda sucked but wasnt too bad coz i got prezzies before anyone else :p and had an uber turkey dinner :D mmm..
hehe and i got money for presents which means im totally gonna buy myself stuff - that way it wont touvh my account and i wont be any better or worse off than before :D all i have to figure out now is how to get these packages delivered without people becoming suspicious.
Hehe and i gotta find a couple of strap-ons somewhere to wrap up for ste and nicky... hehe i love cassie - she has the most awsome ideas ;)
x

What can i say - i got bored..

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OMG im soo bored.... been online for like 4hrs or something and have only spoken to three people, filled in one of my grad scheme form things and read every single bloody email in someone else's account - methinks i need a life.
hmmm altho saying that maybe i should be appreciating the fact that i dont have to get up early 2moro coz if i get this bloody stupid job 2moro then thats that luxury screwed. full time at a naffing call centre.. pffft! id so better get good money for it... mmmmm buy shoes....
ooooh and on the upside (or possibly down, we see in a few days) i decresed my prednisolone today as well :D w00t - only like the first time in about 7 months :p
i dont think i like being emo tho :S

xx

Woo Hoo - finally got this thing sorted - geez maybe its just me but i really couldnt be arsed finding my way around this bloody thing... i'll figure it out later.
And i always objected to havving an online journal thing not having kept a paper diary for blurb years but hey i figure i dont have to spend the whole time whinging about how much my parents hate me and how the whole world is agaisnt me and all the other crap that people usually write in these emo things :D
hmmm... maybe stop now and try work the rest of it out :S grrr wheres ste when you need him - bloody git - being at work when he should be here helping me do sweet FA! xx